flowofmind

And you're runningrunningrunning. The drums pound with your blood, in and out and in and out. and you don't know where you're going because the drums are driving you. your drums are your direction. and their simultaneously squeezing you, squeezing to get something out of you, anything out of you, a tear, a scream. anything. but you don't give it. you can't. and so you let them down, and their disappointment is evident as they melt away, slowly, and they leave a blank, airy place in you where the wind blows, and now you cry. now you cry and you try to flood the space that they left so open in you. but it won't fill, it drains out and cannot be refilled. this piece cannot be replaced. now there is just noise, but no drive, no directions. and your tears fill up the woods that you end up in and you can't swim because of the vines and the voices that are tying you down to the earth, and you can feel it's heartbeat through them, and it's motherly and it softens you, makes your heart pulsate with its own, and you want to stop struggling and float freely among the salty seas that you created in your desperate attempt to be full again. But you keep your feet kicking, trying to escape the liquid that so greedily wants to slip into your lungs, your clear and wanting lungs. The voices now curl into your ears with their soothing volume, their layers slithering to create one, one whole and developed breath. you're tired and you cant fight anymore, so your arms and your legs hang limp now, and they float wholly in the water now. the water touches the sides of your mouth, your mouth that faces up, like it wants to swallow the moon and all its velvet stars. the water seeks the opening, the opening to your pounding, straining head. it trickles in, slowly, and then after a taste of your tongue, it seeps, voraciously, conquering your mouth. and as you spit it out, trying to breath, it dances up your nose, filling your eyes. but it doesn't burn. it feels you, and you feel it. and she glimmers in the moonlight, wrapping you in her loving embrace. you breath in her blood. and you accept. and you know and a peace comes over you. and you look back up at the moon and all its velvet stars. all its velvet stars. and they still shine, they shine through you. and once you're gone, they still shine as brightly and magnificently as before.